Assalamualaikum w.b.t
About my previous post, I still find myself in a difficult position, really. It is not the feeling of burden but more like who am I to give such advice to them. However, I am glad to be there for my friends, in time of tears or bliss. I said to D, It is really queer to find myself hearing your problems, same goes to them, those who often share their stories on relationship and seek for an advice from me because I myself is single and not available at the moment, but I'm the one who is being the listener to those who are in relationship. Do you trust me that much?
There was one time, my friend 'I' sent me a handwritten note during lecture, asking my opinion about a guy who wants to leave for Agama. What kind of response should she gives and how about her feelings? Questions like that. At that moment, I felt teary that she even considered to ask me. And so I replied. Not that my opinion matters but I'm just giving out opinion since she needs it. She can read it but it is her decision to do it.
I replied to her, 'If he really leave you for Agama like he said, be happy for him and be happy for you. Somehow, if Agama is the reason, and if both of you are destined to be together, nothing can really change it. But if he leave you for another girl but giving Agama as an excuse, be happy for yourself and let him be because he is the one who will lose someone precious and nice like you. Be strong dear... ' And etc..
It is such another wake up call for me, if I were to summarize it. This week has been a hectic week with sleeping disorders, headache started to emerge out of nowhere and gradually I realized that I creased my forehead more often than usual due to a lot of works to do, but eventually it is Allah who give me strength and courage in a soft way that it put my mind at ease. Alhamdulillah. I successfully carve my smile sincerely from my heart :)
At times when I feel defeated by stress, Allah shows to me that there are people who are in need to be helped and supported, more than myself, until Allah lend such strength to me to get back on my knees and think positive for me to be there for them. I'm sure they are strong as well, they just got clouded under circumstances for awhile. I'm not there to solve their problem anyway, I hope to be a companion for them to find their strength from Him, just the same way as Allah had given to me.
Here I want to specially thanked my roommates for being such sweethearts. Eventhough I rarely said that I'm extremely tired, they can read it through my eyes and face, they will whisper some words of courage to me in which I appreciate more than ever ;')
Jazakallahukhairan khatira..
Ukhwah fillah...
